today i found out one big shocking news..
i was like tergamam jugak la wen hear he said about the fact that is supposed to be kept secret.
i noe dat he's intention is to do me a favor..
and aku hargai benda apa yang dia cakapkan 2..
well, he might be wiser enough den me,heh..
all the truth that he told me, i try to accept it all witout complaining..
guess wat,aku bjaya kot diam n dengar dgn open minded yang gile babi nye open,hehe..
malas la aku nak fkr byk2..
ade betul jugak ape yang dia cakap 2..
thanz nway, sbb if not aku xkan penah taw yang sume org xsuka aku..
im so full of suprised dat u wont even noe wen im gonna be somone dat u will hate..
aku rase aku da cukop baik dgn sume org but yea,we cant please all kan?
different people different opinion..i just dont get it why i cant be like myself to get people to love me?why shud i be others?
can i just say 'fuk it' and live my life like i did before with my frens in sunway?
but NO...he said dont..i'll fucked up if i did dat..even if by being half me now, people started to ignore me (which aku sbnrnye xpasan pon if dia x gtaw aku,soo naive..haha).
i dont like the feelings of being isolated..i dont like the feelings of getting hated..but i guess i just have to live it that way..
he said dat maybe i was jeles of her n i was like terikot2 dia..
d thing is, before this i dress up like dat jugak wat..but not here la of coz..dats Y he said,org2 kat sni tgk aku mcm da lain since she came,like i was beginning 2 be her bcoz people likes her,and d thing is,me and her are from different situation,i cant be her bcoz if i do org akan benci aku..haha..kinda funny but 2 tell u d truth, i neva did trying to become her so dat people like me or wat..as for them,lantak korang la nak jaohkan diri dr aku pon..like hell i dont care..!!
aku xpasan pon la korg nak jaohkan dr,npk sgt korg xde dlm life aku pon,haha..
just bile aku dpt taw,aku mcm bengang jugak la sbb wtf dat i've done dat makes ur life fucking miserable?penah ke aku kacau hidop korang?klaka je..
he said dat its not what i've done,its wut they like 2 see me do..derang xsuka aku skang sbb derang rase aku yang tym mula2 masuk sni dgn aku yang skang lain..derang rase aku xseswai dgn derang,dgn life derang, like i dont belong here..wuteva..
one more thing yang he talk about is pasal me and him..he said wen im around him i become another different me, d one more to a bitch with gedik is my main attitude..haha..aku rase aku dgn dia da mmg since ever talk like dat kot..but yea,he said dlu lain coz people around me is not as many as now, and people cant accept me being like dat so dey called me gedik n wat so ever..dia ade ckp jugak,myb even dat guy pon menyampah dgn aku,n diz one i tink is true, eventho we were both good friens and we owez talked like dat since ever, but i tink he might possibly menyampah with me..and wen it comes to him, as hell i do care..
i guess i need to be a loner...
feel like i was left alone in diz big world of mine..
im lost~
argh...fuk it!
my finals are damn near weih..adoy~
i was like tergamam jugak la wen hear he said about the fact that is supposed to be kept secret.
i noe dat he's intention is to do me a favor..
and aku hargai benda apa yang dia cakapkan 2..
well, he might be wiser enough den me,heh..
all the truth that he told me, i try to accept it all witout complaining..
guess wat,aku bjaya kot diam n dengar dgn open minded yang gile babi nye open,hehe..
malas la aku nak fkr byk2..
ade betul jugak ape yang dia cakap 2..
thanz nway, sbb if not aku xkan penah taw yang sume org xsuka aku..
im so full of suprised dat u wont even noe wen im gonna be somone dat u will hate..
aku rase aku da cukop baik dgn sume org but yea,we cant please all kan?
different people different opinion..i just dont get it why i cant be like myself to get people to love me?why shud i be others?
can i just say 'fuk it' and live my life like i did before with my frens in sunway?
but NO...he said dont..i'll fucked up if i did dat..even if by being half me now, people started to ignore me (which aku sbnrnye xpasan pon if dia x gtaw aku,soo naive..haha).
i dont like the feelings of being isolated..i dont like the feelings of getting hated..but i guess i just have to live it that way..
he said dat maybe i was jeles of her n i was like terikot2 dia..
d thing is, before this i dress up like dat jugak wat..but not here la of coz..dats Y he said,org2 kat sni tgk aku mcm da lain since she came,like i was beginning 2 be her bcoz people likes her,and d thing is,me and her are from different situation,i cant be her bcoz if i do org akan benci aku..haha..kinda funny but 2 tell u d truth, i neva did trying to become her so dat people like me or wat..as for them,lantak korang la nak jaohkan diri dr aku pon..like hell i dont care..!!
aku xpasan pon la korg nak jaohkan dr,npk sgt korg xde dlm life aku pon,haha..
just bile aku dpt taw,aku mcm bengang jugak la sbb wtf dat i've done dat makes ur life fucking miserable?penah ke aku kacau hidop korang?klaka je..
he said dat its not what i've done,its wut they like 2 see me do..derang xsuka aku skang sbb derang rase aku yang tym mula2 masuk sni dgn aku yang skang lain..derang rase aku xseswai dgn derang,dgn life derang, like i dont belong here..wuteva..
one more thing yang he talk about is pasal me and him..he said wen im around him i become another different me, d one more to a bitch with gedik is my main attitude..haha..aku rase aku dgn dia da mmg since ever talk like dat kot..but yea,he said dlu lain coz people around me is not as many as now, and people cant accept me being like dat so dey called me gedik n wat so ever..dia ade ckp jugak,myb even dat guy pon menyampah dgn aku,n diz one i tink is true, eventho we were both good friens and we owez talked like dat since ever, but i tink he might possibly menyampah with me..and wen it comes to him, as hell i do care..
i guess i need to be a loner...
feel like i was left alone in diz big world of mine..
im lost~
argh...fuk it!
my finals are damn near weih..adoy~
