~missing memories~

cuti ni aku asyik kat umah je..
internet pon xde kat umah..
so, ni alang2 da ade internet,aku rase mcm nak share something lak..
aku baru je pas tgk gamba2 yang membe aku ni upload kat facebook..
guess what, they were all from the long almost forgotten memories that was somehow kept almost in the other side of all memories..
daym dat was soo sweet n fun back there..
aku mmg terharu tgk gamba2 ni..
seyes cakap aku rindoo..
back then when we all were still ''kids', i barely remember how's the feeling of loneliness..
kat mane2 je ade kawan..
dlu aku kiranye mcm hidup ber'gang' jugak la..
best sgt..the choir team was awesome..
joining u guys can be said as the best memories ever,trust me..
sonot kan time2 blatih, time2 makan beramai2, lepak2 tepi pantai kat kuala perlis tu sume?
haha..mmg best la..
nway,ANN!! ko igt x kita penah gadoh smpai seminggu?
gile la..time tu ko mmg wat aku miserable abes la..bangang nye budak..
sampai ati ko cakap aku da xnak kawan dgn ko lg kan?
time tu noni la tempat aku mengadu..mmg childish la,haha..
noni,aku rindoo ko la bangang..mulut ko mmg becok nak mati,haha..
ham,ko plak mulut nak laser je,haha..
tp ko la yang mcm mak aku kat sane..sket2 ko mesti marah2 aku..
mcm2..ko dgn chic la..bagus gak ko marah2 aku,baru la aku blaja,aku kan pmalas,haha..
dart,aku rase kita mmg kurang bercakap sket kan?
tataw nape tp dr dlu lg aku rase kita x ngam sgt,sbb aku mcm rase ko benci aku camtu..haha..
nanum dgn babad..kamoo mmg lemah lembut dan baik hati..hehe..
tort,ko plak da mcm adik badik ngan aku...
tp satu je,ko mmg sial la tort..ko suka kacau aku kan?haha..
wateva it is, aku mmg rindoo sgt3 kat korang sume..
gile la..diz is like some kinda memory lost lak..
bila aku tgk gamba2 yang azhar upload tu,ada some part of them yang aku mcm lsg xde ingatan pasal tu,sdeyh je,huhu..
klas 5k plak..
aku sayang klas ni..as'ad..dlu kita rapat gak..byk gak la ingatan yang aku ada pasal ko,haha..
arip,wpon ko lain klas dgn aku tp bleh kata hari2 ko borak ngan aku kan?
slalu kl time prep tu ko mesti lepak ngan aku,haha..
leya my dear,igt x time mlm before paper fizik (spm)? kita tido sama2 kat atas toto aku..
tym tu lepas prep ko kua dating,ceh,sneak out,haha..
pas2 ko cite2 ape ntah kat aku smpai aku tertido..
pas2 gelabah aku bgn kol 3 pagi study physic,mmg sial la time tu..
cuak gile aku..haha..

ni la one of the photo yang aku 'curi' dari facebook tu,haha..
yang time ni,mmg aku x igt pon tym ni kita wat ape,kat mane..
aku just rase time ni kita jalan2 di malam hari pastu tiba2 ujan,so kita take cover bawah payung ni,kan?
kalau x silap,jauh gak dr hotel kita..
n kita balik pagi kan time ni?
apa pon,tym ni muka kita suci bersih je..adoy la..
rindunye..

the family~

i saw this post from a blog (act its from azura's blog)..
i really like how the stories goes on..
its like this:


This afternoon, after GIS exam, we went to emart, there, i saw a family which caught my attention, making me feel as if i am part of them. i like this family, n decided to follow and watch the happiness in this family. the family went to emart to shop for groceries.. while the parents are busy buying, their four children (one of them wasn't following. ??) went to the goodies section. there, they saw lots of goodies (i wasnt interested, its them actually) hehe.. but too bad.. from my observation, they were all broke dat time.. huhu..

and they then saw a boy crying to his mom, wanting to buy some goodies. watching the boy crying, made the adopted daughter feel bad, pitying the boy, feeling like approaching him and calm his down:p (baeknyerrrr) and suddenly the youngest twin threat his brother and sisters that he'll cry like a baby if they are not buying him any goodies. so they then decided to collect money n buy the goodies so they can share them later.

everyone share their money totaling rm13++ n they then excitedly choose goodies of their own choice. they looked so happy and i enjoyed their happiness as well. funnily, the eldest brother choose pringles snacks which is "expensive" for them, n furthermore, i found out that he only spon 70 cents!! he got 'smacked' by the others and in the end, he end up with small packets of choc costing few cents=) well, he deserves that^^v they then laughed all the way to the cashier to pay for the goodies.

seeing them happy made me happy.. i like this family.. it's such a complete family, full of happiness, cuteness and everything that a family have and practices everyday.. well, that's all folks. i then followed them back home. huh???????


few days ago,
we (me, najwa, zaifa, asha, ammar, faeez and ellys) played along in the family game. Asha n her husband play the role as our parent, with me, adopted daughter, faeez, their eldest son, ellys, second child n twins najwa and ammar =)


yeap..!!! that's US..and the stories that she post is all about us..
except for that the fact that there's actually so much more fun n happiness that we share doing things togetha..
i am sooo in love with this family..
but being the anak bongsu twin with ammar, me always spend time with my sweet twin (erk,sweet ke?mcm psychotic lg seswai je..haha)
apa pon..family kami mmg sgt best..
we really are childish..sangat~
the idea of collecting our last money and buying things yang zura post kat atas tu adalah my idea (claim credibility,ntah pape,haha)

our mama

daddy's girls

abg long

kak ngah

the cutest twin evverrrr!!!!! =]

>have a heart<

Wow~
Being told that u’re easy by 5 different person in a day doesn’t sounds so cool..
In fact, it was surprising..
people are talking bout me..
I was lame to not knowing this…
Damn lame..
But yea, I noe im easy tho..

Im EASY to like people..
Im EASY to think nicely of people..
Im EASY to do nice to people..
Im EASY to let people come into my life..
Im EASY to forgive..
Im EASY to say yes..
Im EASY to help..
Im EASY to be used..
Im EASY to be cheated!!

I noe I told people dat I can easily falls in love..
Yes, dats one of my biggest weakness..
My BFF leya used to get angry at me since ever, coz she said im too easy to be cheated..
Im aware of this but to overcome ur biggest weakness isn’t so easy..
Look..me being easy doesn’t mean dat im CHEAP..
When im being easy, doesn’t mean dat I accept evry stupid things dat u wanna do..
Im not a Barbie doll u can play around..
Don’t used my weakness against me..
Don’t eva think dat u can come n go anytime u like..
I have heart..I do feel sick..
Using someone like me as ur so called slave sound so fucked, okkay..
n calling me bitch sounds so stupid..
like hell I don’t care if im being a bitch, it’s a lot more nicer den u being a slut..
why care?
Ur so called good-deed doesn’t make any sense if u go around telling people lies..
Fucked off!

I wonder why we doesn’t have ‘boy,ur so easy’ but we have ‘girl,ur easy’..
Guess if so, then every guy in diz world would have no value..
They can try us girl but why if we wanna try them then we’ll be soo wrong?
Its ok if dey said ‘ala,pompuan bkn stok nak wat gf pon,aku just nak try je’
But why wen im just joking saying diz ‘eh,sape ckp aku suka dia?aku saje je nak try dia,tgk dia ok ke x jd bf aku,haha’ den its all so wrong n I got d L word on my face?
Wtf~ ????
Not that I intended to try tho..
Sounds so silly la wei..heh..
Leave u guys with ur own judgment is d best idea..
So dat later it’ll be more stupid stories around..
gimme some space..durh~

best in me

My heart isn’t at ease..
Im hurt…
too much to told..
too little to hold..

Why me?
Everyone started to condemn me..
Every single things I do is wrong..
Evrey single move I made is forbidden..
Heart..be strong…

There’s diz one boy..
Seems to be so gentle..
Turns out that he’s cruel..
After some time I noe that he’s a fucker..
Words spreading faster..
Im an EASY girl..
What a loser..

Worst thing come..
One after the other..
Being single is no longer an option..
Now I know the meaning of loneliness..

He who cared, is gone..
He who loves me so, is done..
He who’s patient, none..
He who took every bad things I gave, shine..
He who use to be mine,is no longer mine..

Once, I pleaded for freedom..
Now, I needed a new wisdom..
Who’s to be blamed is not a solution..
For me will still be in a mission..
Without perfect explanations..

september child~

at this time im supposed to have my remote sensing lecture but somehow my laziness took over (as always,haha)

so,sempat lagi la aku wat kuiz ni kat facebook (what does ur bitrh month represent) and here's d result:


Suave and compromising
Careful, cautious and organized
Likes to point out people's mistakes
Likes to criticize
Quiet but able to talk well
Calm and cool
Kind and sympathetic
Concerned and detailed
Trustworthy, loyal and honest
Does work well
Very confident
Sensitive
Thinking
generous
Good memory
Clever and knowledgeable
Loves to look for information
Must control oneself when criticizing
Able to motivate oneself
Understanding
Fun to be around
Secretive
Loves sports, leisure and traveling
Hardly shows emotions
Tends to bottle up feelings
Choosy especially in relationships
Loves wide things
Systematic


most of this are like true~

btw,im a september child =]

so korg rase btol x ape yang tertera kat sini?

hehe

.:choosing side:.

what if u oredy have someone who loves u deeply,but yet, u still have eye for other guy?
what will u do if ur bf is d best guy ever exist for u,but yet, u found out that now ur falling for someone else?
now,diz shit happens to one of my fren and she was like totally in the mess..
not that she didnt love her bf,she did..but still,there's this one guy that somehow got her attention.
she said its his personality that attracted her..
i knew her bf quite well, and trust me,he is such a very good guy one can get..
not mentioning his charmed,he's caring and loving..to make the package quite well,he's d bf who didnt took away his gf's freedom..
when she told me about this,only one thing crossed my mind,she shud stay in where she is now,with her bf!
but yeah,dey'r aving a long distance relationship and its hard..
i noe its really hard,im in one too anyway,haha~
which den reminds me,do i somhow will be like her,falling for someone else?
for now i guess we're ok..
somhow i do feel like having one bf who can be by my side 24/7..
lame~ haha
i mean,24/7??
quite a bluff eyh? haha..

I knew im d one at fault..

But still…

I cant give up all hated by you..

I cant show how much I do loved you..

Worst is I cant even make a happy you..

 

I knew dat I don’t deserve you..

But yet..

I greed for you stayed..

I craved for you pleaded..

I hunger for you strayed..

 

I knew you are in pain..

But me..

I heard you cried with agony..

I saw you fall with everything..

I felt you broken to nothing..

 

I knew im d one at fault..

Im d one who broke you..

Im the one who bleed you..

Im d one with cold hearted..

 

But still..

I knew I need you..

I knew I want you..

 

And yet…

I kept on neglecting you..

I kept on hurting you..

 

So ME..

I decided to let you go…

Just so you know..

 

 

 

I LOVED YOU SO..