the family~

i saw this post from a blog (act its from azura's blog)..
i really like how the stories goes on..
its like this:


This afternoon, after GIS exam, we went to emart, there, i saw a family which caught my attention, making me feel as if i am part of them. i like this family, n decided to follow and watch the happiness in this family. the family went to emart to shop for groceries.. while the parents are busy buying, their four children (one of them wasn't following. ??) went to the goodies section. there, they saw lots of goodies (i wasnt interested, its them actually) hehe.. but too bad.. from my observation, they were all broke dat time.. huhu..

and they then saw a boy crying to his mom, wanting to buy some goodies. watching the boy crying, made the adopted daughter feel bad, pitying the boy, feeling like approaching him and calm his down:p (baeknyerrrr) and suddenly the youngest twin threat his brother and sisters that he'll cry like a baby if they are not buying him any goodies. so they then decided to collect money n buy the goodies so they can share them later.

everyone share their money totaling rm13++ n they then excitedly choose goodies of their own choice. they looked so happy and i enjoyed their happiness as well. funnily, the eldest brother choose pringles snacks which is "expensive" for them, n furthermore, i found out that he only spon 70 cents!! he got 'smacked' by the others and in the end, he end up with small packets of choc costing few cents=) well, he deserves that^^v they then laughed all the way to the cashier to pay for the goodies.

seeing them happy made me happy.. i like this family.. it's such a complete family, full of happiness, cuteness and everything that a family have and practices everyday.. well, that's all folks. i then followed them back home. huh???????


few days ago,
we (me, najwa, zaifa, asha, ammar, faeez and ellys) played along in the family game. Asha n her husband play the role as our parent, with me, adopted daughter, faeez, their eldest son, ellys, second child n twins najwa and ammar =)


yeap..!!! that's US..and the stories that she post is all about us..
except for that the fact that there's actually so much more fun n happiness that we share doing things togetha..
i am sooo in love with this family..
but being the anak bongsu twin with ammar, me always spend time with my sweet twin (erk,sweet ke?mcm psychotic lg seswai je..haha)
apa pon..family kami mmg sgt best..
we really are childish..sangat~
the idea of collecting our last money and buying things yang zura post kat atas tu adalah my idea (claim credibility,ntah pape,haha)

our mama

daddy's girls

abg long

kak ngah

the cutest twin evverrrr!!!!! =]

>have a heart<

Wow~
Being told that u’re easy by 5 different person in a day doesn’t sounds so cool..
In fact, it was surprising..
people are talking bout me..
I was lame to not knowing this…
Damn lame..
But yea, I noe im easy tho..

Im EASY to like people..
Im EASY to think nicely of people..
Im EASY to do nice to people..
Im EASY to let people come into my life..
Im EASY to forgive..
Im EASY to say yes..
Im EASY to help..
Im EASY to be used..
Im EASY to be cheated!!

I noe I told people dat I can easily falls in love..
Yes, dats one of my biggest weakness..
My BFF leya used to get angry at me since ever, coz she said im too easy to be cheated..
Im aware of this but to overcome ur biggest weakness isn’t so easy..
Look..me being easy doesn’t mean dat im CHEAP..
When im being easy, doesn’t mean dat I accept evry stupid things dat u wanna do..
Im not a Barbie doll u can play around..
Don’t used my weakness against me..
Don’t eva think dat u can come n go anytime u like..
I have heart..I do feel sick..
Using someone like me as ur so called slave sound so fucked, okkay..
n calling me bitch sounds so stupid..
like hell I don’t care if im being a bitch, it’s a lot more nicer den u being a slut..
why care?
Ur so called good-deed doesn’t make any sense if u go around telling people lies..
Fucked off!

I wonder why we doesn’t have ‘boy,ur so easy’ but we have ‘girl,ur easy’..
Guess if so, then every guy in diz world would have no value..
They can try us girl but why if we wanna try them then we’ll be soo wrong?
Its ok if dey said ‘ala,pompuan bkn stok nak wat gf pon,aku just nak try je’
But why wen im just joking saying diz ‘eh,sape ckp aku suka dia?aku saje je nak try dia,tgk dia ok ke x jd bf aku,haha’ den its all so wrong n I got d L word on my face?
Wtf~ ????
Not that I intended to try tho..
Sounds so silly la wei..heh..
Leave u guys with ur own judgment is d best idea..
So dat later it’ll be more stupid stories around..
gimme some space..durh~

best in me

My heart isn’t at ease..
Im hurt…
too much to told..
too little to hold..

Why me?
Everyone started to condemn me..
Every single things I do is wrong..
Evrey single move I made is forbidden..
Heart..be strong…

There’s diz one boy..
Seems to be so gentle..
Turns out that he’s cruel..
After some time I noe that he’s a fucker..
Words spreading faster..
Im an EASY girl..
What a loser..

Worst thing come..
One after the other..
Being single is no longer an option..
Now I know the meaning of loneliness..

He who cared, is gone..
He who loves me so, is done..
He who’s patient, none..
He who took every bad things I gave, shine..
He who use to be mine,is no longer mine..

Once, I pleaded for freedom..
Now, I needed a new wisdom..
Who’s to be blamed is not a solution..
For me will still be in a mission..
Without perfect explanations..

september child~

at this time im supposed to have my remote sensing lecture but somehow my laziness took over (as always,haha)

so,sempat lagi la aku wat kuiz ni kat facebook (what does ur bitrh month represent) and here's d result:


Suave and compromising
Careful, cautious and organized
Likes to point out people's mistakes
Likes to criticize
Quiet but able to talk well
Calm and cool
Kind and sympathetic
Concerned and detailed
Trustworthy, loyal and honest
Does work well
Very confident
Sensitive
Thinking
generous
Good memory
Clever and knowledgeable
Loves to look for information
Must control oneself when criticizing
Able to motivate oneself
Understanding
Fun to be around
Secretive
Loves sports, leisure and traveling
Hardly shows emotions
Tends to bottle up feelings
Choosy especially in relationships
Loves wide things
Systematic


most of this are like true~

btw,im a september child =]

so korg rase btol x ape yang tertera kat sini?

hehe

.:choosing side:.

what if u oredy have someone who loves u deeply,but yet, u still have eye for other guy?
what will u do if ur bf is d best guy ever exist for u,but yet, u found out that now ur falling for someone else?
now,diz shit happens to one of my fren and she was like totally in the mess..
not that she didnt love her bf,she did..but still,there's this one guy that somehow got her attention.
she said its his personality that attracted her..
i knew her bf quite well, and trust me,he is such a very good guy one can get..
not mentioning his charmed,he's caring and loving..to make the package quite well,he's d bf who didnt took away his gf's freedom..
when she told me about this,only one thing crossed my mind,she shud stay in where she is now,with her bf!
but yeah,dey'r aving a long distance relationship and its hard..
i noe its really hard,im in one too anyway,haha~
which den reminds me,do i somhow will be like her,falling for someone else?
for now i guess we're ok..
somhow i do feel like having one bf who can be by my side 24/7..
lame~ haha
i mean,24/7??
quite a bluff eyh? haha..

I knew im d one at fault..

But still…

I cant give up all hated by you..

I cant show how much I do loved you..

Worst is I cant even make a happy you..

 

I knew dat I don’t deserve you..

But yet..

I greed for you stayed..

I craved for you pleaded..

I hunger for you strayed..

 

I knew you are in pain..

But me..

I heard you cried with agony..

I saw you fall with everything..

I felt you broken to nothing..

 

I knew im d one at fault..

Im d one who broke you..

Im the one who bleed you..

Im d one with cold hearted..

 

But still..

I knew I need you..

I knew I want you..

 

And yet…

I kept on neglecting you..

I kept on hurting you..

 

So ME..

I decided to let you go…

Just so you know..

 

 

 

I LOVED YOU SO..

 

car oh car..

wen i was away to my homtown,my car is with sedut..
he told me a story about how people wanna borrow my car..
but the thing is,he was so unpleasant about this thing bcoz katanya weneva my car rosak or anything,nobody cares,no one even bother to help me (which i tink is sooo true,hehe)..

actually,evrything that he said kan,makes me feel a bit stupid,hehe..
tp nak wat cne,org mmg slalu nak senang je..
to be an owner to any transport aku rasa mmg sakit mcm ni la kot..
kete buruk aku ni da telan bp ribu plak since beli end of march last year,haih..
so not worth it,tp xkesah la,da kete aku,nak xnak kna jaga jgk..
but i tink kan,mmg xpatut la sape2 yang reti pinjam je tp xnak be responsible..kan nini?
feel lucky dat i stil have sedut this sem..bl kete rosak je aku cari dia..xpasal2 lak dia yang kna teman aku g workshop,deal, n evrything..
nak harapkan aku sorg mana la aku reti..
dunno how its gonna be witout him,sigh~

owh time nak blk miri ari2 sempat lg jmpa bf aku,hehe..
thanz la ye datang jmpa kat eport wpon jmpa 4 only like an hour +,hehe..
susah2 je..
sanggup ko datang,bagos2,sayang ko kat aku,haha..

memory 1st day puasa 2009

alkisah..
jumaat mlm aku stay hotel dgn bestfren aku leya..
pas2 kan sab2 puasa..
kat bawah tu ada kdai mamak..
aku plak xbleh puasa..
so lepas check out hotel hari sabtu,smentara nak tggu cab nak g eport nak balik,aku lepak la kdai mamak ni..
den dtg la org amek oder..
"mau apa miss?"
maka aku dgn slamber nye...
"kasi teh ais satu..syg ko nak ape?"
"aaa...horlick panas satu.."
pas2 aku sambong la sembang dgn budak ni..
tgh2 dok sembang leya cakap asal mamak ni asyik pandang2 kita pas2 sengih2..pelik aku..
den tiba2 balak aku datang n dia tnya slambe nye korg ni minom2...
dgn muka pelik aku pandang dia pas2 br aku igt rupa2nya arini pose la..
terus ktrg chow..
nak2 plak da lambat nak g eport..
kl x sempat gak kot aku lepak abeskan minom 2,kan syg kan?
klaka je..
thanz syg teman aku kat eport..
miss u oredy..
harap sgt ko dpt dtg miri b4 ko blah..
hurm... ko da ada bf skang susah sket la..
adoy =p

ps: i miss my bf too.. luv u b..

misery~

yesterday is when my sakit gigi gone..
im sooo happy..
at last,after 2 and almost a half week suffering..
gler saket,betol2 xtahan..asyik kna telan painkiller+panadol je..
klas pon byk gak termiss..
hurm....speaking of which dat reminds me dat i havent yet pass up my two geochem's lab practicals..
im miserable enuf n yet,come the worse case scenario,where i have to burn my wed miri-kl ticket and bought a new one!
this is because of the very important 1st geophysic presentation (markah dia 20% okkay) has to be done on thursday..
but the thing is,now that the first group da abes present,baru la taw yang lama rupanya nak abeskan each presentation ni..
which make it even worse since im in the last group..
well i might be presenting on friday..
and THAT just CANT happen..
i wont risk to have to buy my new THIRD miri-kl ticket..
da la mahal..ni je pon da waste 250 da..
xbleh xbleh..xde duit lagi da na cover new ticket..
sooo im just hoping dat ade la mane2 group yang baik hati sanggup tuka with us..
plitz let us present first..
i wanna go bak home..sad~

owh,lately i've been wathing korean series...
princess hour-luv it!!
full house-watching it again for the 2nd tym..
my garl-3 more episodes n im finished!! (OMG lee dong-wook is soooo damn handsome)

live her life...

today i found out one big shocking news..
i was like tergamam jugak la wen hear he said about the fact that is supposed to be kept secret.
i noe dat he's intention is to do me a favor..
and aku hargai benda apa yang dia cakapkan 2..
well, he might be wiser enough den me,heh..
all the truth that he told me, i try to accept it all witout complaining..
guess wat,aku bjaya kot diam n dengar dgn open minded yang gile babi nye open,hehe..
malas la aku nak fkr byk2..
ade betul jugak ape yang dia cakap 2..
thanz nway, sbb if not aku xkan penah taw yang sume org xsuka aku..
im so full of suprised dat u wont even noe wen im gonna be somone dat u will hate..
aku rase aku da cukop baik dgn sume org but yea,we cant please all kan?
different people different opinion..i just dont get it why i cant be like myself to get people to love me?why shud i be others?
can i just say 'fuk it' and live my life like i did before with my frens in sunway?
but NO...he said dont..i'll fucked up if i did dat..even if by being half me now, people started to ignore me (which aku sbnrnye xpasan pon if dia x gtaw aku,soo naive..haha).
i dont like the feelings of being isolated..i dont like the feelings of getting hated..but i guess i just have to live it that way..
he said dat maybe i was jeles of her n i was like terikot2 dia..
d thing is, before this i dress up like dat jugak wat..but not here la of coz..dats Y he said,org2 kat sni tgk aku mcm da lain since she came,like i was beginning 2 be her bcoz people likes her,and d thing is,me and her are from different situation,i cant be her bcoz if i do org akan benci aku..haha..kinda funny but 2 tell u d truth, i neva did trying to become her so dat people like me or wat..as for them,lantak korang la nak jaohkan diri dr aku pon..like hell i dont care..!!
aku xpasan pon la korg nak jaohkan dr,npk sgt korg xde dlm life aku pon,haha..
just bile aku dpt taw,aku mcm bengang jugak la sbb wtf dat i've done dat makes ur life fucking miserable?penah ke aku kacau hidop korang?klaka je..
he said dat its not what i've done,its wut they like 2 see me do..derang xsuka aku skang sbb derang rase aku yang tym mula2 masuk sni dgn aku yang skang lain..derang rase aku xseswai dgn derang,dgn life derang, like i dont belong here..wuteva..
one more thing yang he talk about is pasal me and him..he said wen im around him i become another different me, d one more to a bitch with gedik is my main attitude..haha..aku rase aku dgn dia da mmg since ever talk like dat kot..but yea,he said dlu lain coz people around me is not as many as now, and people cant accept me being like dat so dey called me gedik n wat so ever..dia ade ckp jugak,myb even dat guy pon menyampah dgn aku,n diz one i tink is true, eventho we were both good friens and we owez talked like dat since ever, but i tink he might possibly menyampah with me..and wen it comes to him, as hell i do care..
i guess i need to be a loner...
feel like i was left alone in diz big world of mine..
im lost~
argh...fuk it!
my finals are damn near weih..adoy~

Anything between us is now gone…

Everything is to be forgotten…

Sorry 4 being such a burden…

 

Things started to be miserable…

Something that wasn’t even ryte taking over…

4 some reasons I feel like diz is forever…

 

I’ve try everything my heart would

I’ve done everything I could

Just tell me what else I should

 

Are we the puzzle that neva fit?

Is that really it?

Should I call it quit?

p/s: why is this happening in the 1st place?kinda funny,haha..

me DeAr me

Dear me….

Who do u tink ur acting such a bitch?

Like….

Playing hot n cold?

Living white n black?

Running here n der?

 

Dear me…

Why on earth did u do dat?

When….

Clearly its black not white…

Obviously its dark not light…

Honestly its suicide….

 

Dear me….

How can u fix all this mess up?

With…

Me and him and him and him…

Respect is out and guilty is in….

Slowly it’s killing….

 

Dear me….

What will u do?

If…

Over there is love and here is hatred?

There are promises and here nothing is spared?

But wrong decision has been made…

 

Dear me…

When will u do a confession?

For….

Choosing black over white…

Picking up fight over making up…

Liking ‘him’ when u LOVES him….

 

 

Most of ALL oo dear me…

No matter who why how what and when….

Ders no way u can turn bak time…

The fact remains…

Guilty builds…

Confession needed…

Love’s chasing…

Hate’s coming…

 

Be wise…

Neva again says its ok when its not…

Neva again says its right when its wrong…

Neva act like ur cool wen ur actually mad…

Loving me loving him…

Dats all u need oo dear me…

just another confession of the ME me....

......................

dear me...

why is it soo hard 4 u 2 decide?

which one is which one dear?

i still like 'him',like before..

but its d same things over n over n over again..

it wont work out as a plan..

like him,but as what?

dat one question is still a mystery,at least i tink so..

now that another life comes interfering,it become more complicated..

as for my new love one..

i LOVE you MORE then anything else..

but wen it comes to jealousy,i surrender..

its ur problem dat u cant go out hanging with some frens bcoz of ur work..

i understand that  deep inside u,u want a life like mine..

hanging out wenever i wan n with a lot of frens around me..

chilling n sharing..

i appreciate it wen u said that u only have me n ur work in ur life..

but im sorry dat in my life,its not only u..

i have frens,i have my free time,n i live in a campus life..

thats something that u want and i understand dat..

but how dear?

how can i gave u all dat?

by giving up mine?

i dont tink dat dat's d right answer..

sometimes i feel like im being mean..

but the fact is,u cant ask me 2 locked myself in my room so dat  wont have 2 be jealous of what u cant have..

as for that particular 'him', im hoping that no matter what,we can still be bestfren..

kinda miss the long last time that we spent 2getha..

and the way u treated me,heh..

treasure dat all the way..

but yeah,past is past..

just a confession of a 'ME' me..

sigh~

scandalous??

akibat kebosanan,my part-time job is being a mamarazi..

so,here's a list of pictures (act its only a few coz some of dem cant be uploaded in respect of these peeps feeling)

it is quite scandalous,haha (but personally 4 me i tink maybe its normal,noting)

buat kamoo kamoo yang di dalam ini,jangan marah2 yer..

hurm...i wonder what are they talking bout dat required them 2 go dat far ya? =]

u noe who dey are?hehe..

no wonder cepat je ko trn dr surau ek.. =]

close up pic..da nampak da sape?? hahaha

diary of me~

3rd may 2009

2day i woke up early coz need to go  2 eport sending my kazen..

sedut still avent sleep since last 2 days (catat record ke wei?)

so,me ellyss n sedut went 2 eport..

odw bak sedut ask 'ape plan arini wei?kl xde jom g taman buaya'

and so den i agreed with this unexpected plan..

he said around 1 we'll move,but then he fell asleep..ape la sedut ni..

okay jay,enough merepek la..

the thing is,i neva noe that this crocodile farm is quite cool..

i mean,got a lot of animals inside there (not only buaya)

if nak tgk buaya,mane2 pon ade buaya darat,kan?hehe..

i love the bear der..

soooo cute (damn)

and he likes me,yeay!!

after the farm,we stop at the beach 2 watch sunset..

and den...dinner tym!!!

mase dinner ramai lg join..

mea's car+my car+aju's car..

sonot sgt kua ramai2 camni...

2day is the most amazing unexpected plan that succeed in making me happy..

kinda hoping 4 someone 2 be here sharing my happiness..

big crocodile..den comes d cute bear cat

hehe...geli jugak pegang phyton ni (berat taw)

this little bear is so damn cute..licking my hands (rndoo kamoo pikko)

im feeding the papa n mama bear...

  

oooo wishing well..plitz granted all my sweet wishes =]

sunset (wpon xnpk sunset pon act,haha) at batu satu beach

  

dinner beramai2 at sugar bun (bintang)

see my fuel weih..we all give out our coins+rm18 but then dapat rm27..

miracle x?

guess the coins worth rm2.70 so the total is rm20.70 but the other cashier might have been misunderstood the 20.7 and key in 27 instead..

lucky!!!

ammar cakap ni luck dia,sbb dia yang g bayar,ape la..haha

dairy of me~

1st may 2009

ehem ehem...arini ade orang heppy lagi...

nak kua date..

who?

its koyot..!!!!

with who????

who else rather den ellyss?

haha..

but suddenly koyot call it cancel..

however,dat evening kan,ntah sape la datang ketuk pintu bilik aku mintak nak pinjam kete kan koyot kan?

pas2 bg alasan mau dgn yana nak kua tgk muvie..

pandai la ko koyot..

nway,me+asha mmg da plan nak kua pon so we just tout dat its ok 2 put things 2getha..

kitorang pon siap2 la..

nak djadikan cte btapa malangnye nasib aku kan,movie kol 9..

dat tym da kol 8 da by the tym i finished showering.

so its been a chaos wen i dunno what 2 wear n so ever..

nak djadikan cte lg..

da abes bsiap sume da amek wallet+hp aku,aku pon lalu klua n terus meng'ktak'kan pin2 bilik aku..

pas2 tb2 baru la perasan,kunci kete ngan knci bilik aku kat dalam lg rupanya..

haha..

nak x nak kna pakai kete aju..

thanz aju..kete ko best do drive..ko xnak jual kat aku ke???

we all lepak since 2 am baru balik..

sonot je..me yana asha koyot elys mau..

thanz mau blanje movie..sayang ko,haha..

korg xsedar ke wei ade field trip pg2 buta nnt kol 7?

however,it was such a nice day..

the best shot..i LOV3 this one..thanz koyot..pndai ko ek wpon act this is ur 3rd attempt,haha

me ellyss asha yana..

p/s: i found this one small stage (or altar?) for the dolls n i fall in love with it.. 

so i took quite a lot of photo..

see the 2nd pic of me n asha?

was trying 2 act like patung act,haha..

but nway,the one koyot took was my fav..

yeay..!!!

30 april 2009

its wani's bday 2day..

heppy bday 2 u (well,ur getting older my dear,haha)

but i guess she's so much in a happy mood now that she has someone special..(ehem~)

lucky her dat she get a surprise bday party from gapham..

bestnyer..mud chocolate cake from secret recipe is sooo damn delicious..

after that we went to the movie..

me azura ammar asha kenex wani gapham kim syaha and didi..

we watch x-men wolverine..

i owez love x-men, the mutants are sooooo KOOL OMG..

d best thing is, dat day it looks like only us in that cinema..

owh, bintang is getting bogger n bigger,,

da ada bog apple donut+marybrown da..

at least mirian wont be soo much in bored now,hehe..

parkson also getting nicer and nicer..

saje je nak abiskan duit aku lg..huhu

have a nice day y'all =]

2 days after the horrible F!eLd tR!p

the 2nd day after the field trip (err,if ikot the real date act 3 days oredy) and you noe how i woke up at as early as 7 and 8 am in the morning?

thats bcoz of my body has been told to wake up early for a week (total of 8days) so its oredy get used to it..

sigh~

kinda pity me coz i slept at like 3 or 4 in the monink..

subuh? usah ditanya..only once in a while..hehe (blush2)

cite pasal field trip ni kan,ish3...

HORROR weih...

act,i dunno dat im dat tough..

walking for more den 5km per day..

being thru jungle..

but jungle is much much betta den HOT..

OMG (YAYT)..

bayangkan kitorang kna visit outcrop n stay from 9am to 3/4pm..

outcrop2 ialah tempat2 horror yang sgt panas tanpa tempat bteduh..terok x?

hangus kulit..hehe..

try look at these 2 pic (contoh outcrop..geology abes,hehe)

     

however..it was a really nice experience..

evry nite having group discussion,bfast lunch dinner togetha..

best jugak la wpon emo sbb panas,hehe..

the most memorable tym 4 me is the tym when we all have to do the group discussion in a big hall kat lambir,n evryone seems to end up sleeping der..

sbb sume org da penat kan..ksian je tengok (rugi je xde gamba tym 2)

well, i wanna congrats all the FUTURE GEOLOGIST of CURTIN...

GREAT JOB+STAMINA (specially the GIRLS,haha)

as for me..if this is how geologist going to work..

no thanz..

i prefer any otha jobs eventho the income is a lot (err..ye ke?depends on how much is A LOT tu la kot,hehe)

till den..daa